23 days to go – The fore front facts 

Yes, there are two entries this week. A lot on my mind and a lot of unwanted seeds to prompt writing and dictate what I write.  

I made a lot of steps this week and took in a lot of information. I went to the authorities and the local department for my area and found it is not open on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I am thinking I may need to go to the headquarters, I hate being new somewhere and not having this kind of needed information. I did take care of some other thing pertaining to the situation and took the goal of making it to get help off my GoFundMe list of things I needed. It was incredibly difficult to get out and do it, and I failed to keep my composure, but I finally got out and went, made it past the first step a second time and unto another.  

Job searches. Resumes and Cover letters. Webinars. Assessment tests. All useful but distractions nonetheless as I was not able to study the material needed for my plans on job advancement. My disrupted sleep pattern is affecting my work and study times. I am exhausted.  

I did an interview with a job recruiter but got a short response after informing her, which is my legal responsibility, about the life situation I hate to mention. I am wondering if I should reach out about the job in question or if I should just let it go.  

I missed some journaling days once or twice and one day I even wrote my personal entries in my business journal and vice versa. I believe that I have more worries than I do facts about my life. Although in my defense a lot of my worries are based off fact. Facts I cannot talk about.  

I am looking for remote work. Currently I am on Flexjobs.com for most of those positions. However, I am on ZipRecruiter and Indeed for companies willing to take an employee at risk. They currently have some hybrid jobs as well as remote. All I know is I need something in the next 20 days.  

The mic I ordered through Amazon came and I went today and got it. I recorded some entries from the ‘Poetry’ page and will be including them as soon as I can get that page edited with the new recordings. There are a few.  

One of the hardest things for me is hearing my own voice. I do not really like my serious speaking voice. Okay, I am not a fan of any of my accents but some of that has to do with being called doll or android. Under different circumstances it would not bother me. It is something I would like to work on.  

I need sleep. Actually, uninterrupted sleep. Seedless sleep.  

If not better and closer. That must mean something, right?